actuality

when i was alone

you came around

Sunday, January 30, 2005

i hate my life. my stupid math tchrs causin all de probs. go n die lahh. n bio too. ms chong tore yulendas bk!!!! bt wateva. i seriously hate mrs chia (math). shee sux man. n i got a hp!!! bt my mum has to ruin all de joy. she sez i cant giv my no to frens. bt wateva. i did. hp she doesnt find out. then todae five guys dint sign their math common test n mrs chia was like screamin at them. she screams really loud cos she's in charge of npcc. neways.. she was like "de five idiots pls GET OUT OF DE CLASS" whoa. so dey just left. den she sed its de first tm neone has eva done tt in history. yeah.. im so sure. den during common test todae dis chi guy frm chi came to invigilate our class.

den he was like " i cant spk eng well so pls dun larf at me" haha.. n wen he was givin out de pprs he was like slammin dem on the tables. bt there's dis really selfish gerl in me class n i HATE her. im not sayin her nm here in case she comes n reads. so.. like qi. i hav decided to change my blog address. soon. peace out.

Monday, January 24, 2005

i m nothin. nothin at all. there's no me. no me without u. no life. i feel so empty. n im goin insane. oh yepps. today i kept meetin jacqueline n qixian (her bf) by coincidence. i reach school den i c dem walkin togetha to our class. actually only jac's in our class. qixian is sec 3 or 4. neways. yahhs. so aft sch aso i saw dem. den i was like so embarrassed. so i was walkin bhind dem. den jac turn den saw me n she smiled. den i tink she told qixian n den he turn round n wave at me. den i was like so damn shocked. so i just wave bck at him n he smiled. whoa. so weird leh. n i nearly failed for my first eva common test. mt compo. den like so annoyin. dis stupid gerl kept askin me "eh hw much u gt? hw much u gt?" stoopid gerl.

eew. i hate her. i dun wana tok bout her. shity gerl. oh yeah. rachael read my blog n she told evryone in class tt dey shld read it too. cos gt a lot of bad words. u knw wen i sed guys r fucked up losers. no offence to jac bt i tink qixian makes a gd example of tt.

Friday, January 21, 2005

i dont think i can make it bck to rgps on cny eve. cos. i may hav cca till six. if i can den i will. duh. if i cant den. i'll go on fri. if any of my frens wana come wimme.

Thursday, January 20, 2005

i am so totally crushed. i feel so unwanted in my sch. ok mebbe not so much bt if not for stupid cynthia n stupid other gerl. i wld totally feel alrite. i almost killed myself today. my stupid bio tchr wont even let me cross my stupid long legs in class. she says "it's not ladylike." watever. like i wana b a lady. i sneezed while evryone was greeting my maths tchr n she made me say gd morning. all on my own. WHAT KINDA SCH R DEY RUNNIN????? if i cld just get my hands round tt throat of hers.... s nat sez guys r fucked up losers. yup. so real.

Sunday, January 16, 2005

yeppy. i really really really really really really really hate my life. i hate my stupid tamil teacher, stupid science teacher, stupid form teacher n all de stupid tchrs. espacially my bitchy math tchr. i totally feel like breakin down now. none of my stupid frens miss their stupid pri schs. its only depressed me. school is so not fun.i hate my stoopid form tchr. i want ma. i want mrs lim to b my sci tchr. i even dun mind ms rajamani b my tamil tchr. wana die larr. evryday i come bck frm sch so sad. wana c my frens. miss my frens. life sux rite now cos:

-stupid tchrs
-stupid frens
-miss my old tchrs
-miss my old frens
-miss my old sch

one last ting. QI U R SO LICKY U GET TO JOIN SOCCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, January 13, 2005

the only fun thing bout goin to rgps last yr was my frens!! without them, sch would be so boring. i really miss the tmz when we would just sit n tok bout sch, bout hm, but in sec sch its TOTALLY different. i mean, u cant ask someone if they like sp. they'll just ask u bck "hu's sp?" it's so major. and i'm totally not used to it. u cant pass notes during lessons n get caught, u cant just stay bck for the fun of it. there's no nata to say im in lurf with the ice cream man. there's no nat tellin me that im innocent. there's no dar n qi singin some stupid song we made up. there's no cow pullin off my belt n screamin like a maniac. no more cancer lady. no more fag. no more borrowin eminem frm qi. no more borrowin mp3 frm weiting. no more of cher's maiden hair. no more pbg. there's no way this is eva gnna change.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

oh my god. u will not blieve wat happened today. dere's dis gerl in 1/3 called jacqueline. den today she received chocs from a BOY!!!!!! so she was like so disgusted. she was trying to give neone de chocs but no one took. den finally my other fren took. so i was so damn hungry so i juz took one lah. den after sch dis two boys came to my class n ask if we knw jacqueline. so we all were like "yucks. u give de chocs is it?" den he nod his head. eew!!! i cant blieve i eat it. den my fren all say i eat de most chocs. (cos u noe i lurf it) den de shitty guy kept asking me if de chocs nice or not. den i was like " yep. nice. " den he was like smilin at me. yux. but i tink he's quite cute. YUCKS!!!!!!! eew..he's upper sec s'more.

Monday, January 10, 2005

hey..so im tokin to weiting n she sed mebbe chinese new yr or sumthin can go bak to rgps. agree? im aso not sure. wat to say.... erm.. well i'll try to send letters to u guys. actually i wana send to dar n nat n cher. but im scared .... my dad may get irritated. well. i'll try my best.. kayys? peace out.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

i dun feel like being depressed so dun make me. neway, saturday is weiting's burfday so an early shoutout to her: HAPPY BURFDAY TO U!!!! ok that was lame.

Monday, January 03, 2005

so de first day of de rest of my sec sch life juz ended. foreva? i wish. WHY?? thats all i wanna noe. WHY was i cursed with such a horrible life?? de problem is, i juz want sm of my old frens to b wif me. look at me. i cant even erase rgps off my blog. i.m sufferin frm somethin. seriously. i mean, i dun wanna b left bhind. oh well. i cant change de world. right?