actuality

when i was alone

you came around

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

hurrlow, i feel like getting fresh, hahah no lah. today the stupid conductor only finished band at 630, and we were last to leave school, even later than the security guard i think :/ anyway, on 10 march jeslin and me are going for some walk thing, like "take the city walk", but it's for heart problem people, and we're going there not to walk, but to help the guides give out goodie bags :D yay funfun, and we get a free teeshirt too! (=
tomorrow got bio test, okay i gtg eat dinner now, ciaozzzz!!

Labels: whispers 'hello i miss you quite terribly'.

Monday, February 26, 2007

yorzzzzzz, today had the chem test, and then emaths test..erm after school wanted to go for geog ATP with adhi, who was supposedly the only student, but mr tan went MIA and so did everyone else. so afina, adhi and mua wwanted to go to queenstown libby, we sat at the school busstop waiting for adhi's mum for so long, then finally adhi said we should go first. went to commonwealth busstop and waited for the freaking bus which took freaking long to come, so meanwhile we feasted on otak or otah or however you spell it, and we missed the first bus while eating, and we didnt wanna wait another hour for the next one, so we walked to the libby in the rain. went to the libby and afina borrowed her books then blah and we went home!

i've decided to give up. there's no point deluding myself anymore, i'm only hurting myself. but it's so hard..

Labels: what it's like to touch you.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

heylorz, i feel soo leychey, my parents just came back today and i had to wake up at 5am to pick em up, -yawns-. sigh, next week is a busybusy week, can i just skip school the whole of next week? 984570375856 tests and cross country and 2.4, i just found out): boohoo.tmr i have my dance theory exam and i just cant remember all the prayers, why couldnt the prayers have been written in ENGLISH? sigh.
i hate it when people are together in a big group, and one or two of em keep talking about stuff that the others dont know (if you know what i mean) and the rest feel so left out, i seriously know how that feels, even though i've been the inconsiderato one at times, but still, now i know that it sucks.i so hate people who do that.okay i gtg now, byezzzz.

Labels: take it while it lasts cause it will end.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

yoyoyo, i got back my amaths test today, got 19.5/30, yay? um after school went to afinie's house and watched lovewrecked and ate fried rice, yumyum =DD and thanks for leaving my amaths book in the bus! and i left my ezlink card in her house too, lucky i had coins wimme, if not would have to pay $2. mardy mirza has a new album, you give me chicken wings! hahah okay sorry, joke. kay, have to go now, i hope my amath book comes back tmr :/ bye!

Labels: get out of my head.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

YES, IT'S FINALLY OVER!! today was our food innovatio last day, so we did our presentation, ate a lot of food and got our certificates!! :DD
after that was supposed to go for dinner with the AEM people but didn't, cause my sis wanted me to go watch a movie with her. but no nice movies playing now): i think norbit is a very very stupid movie. so i went jurong point and borrowed step up and lovewrecked. waiting for my sis to finish her hour long bath so we can start our movie marathon! YAY!! and no homework!! okay gtg, ciao! (=

Labels: you can take it all away.

Sunday, February 18, 2007

My name:
2. Where did we meet?:
3. How long have you known me?:
4. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?:
5. Do I smoke?: 6. What's my favourite colour?:
7. How much do i mean to you on a scale of 1-10(10 being the higest):
8. My age?:
9. My birthday?:
10. Color Hair?:
11. Color eyes?:

12. Have you ever been jealous of me?:
13. Whats one of my fav things to do indoors?:
14. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met?:
15. Whats my fav type of music?: 16.Whats one of my fav things to do outdoors?: 17. Am I shy or outgoing?:
18.Would you say I'm funny HAHA or funny (sarcastic)?:
19. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?:
20. Would you consider me a friend?: 21. Would you call me bossy, average, sporty, happy-go-lucky, glamourous, snobby, or something else?:
22. Have you ever seen me cry?:
23. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be?: 24. Name 5 things you like about me:
25. If I had broccoli stuck on my teeth, would you tell me?: 26. Do you love me?:
AM I?!?!?!?
27. Quiet or loud? :
28. Short or Tall:
29.Weird or original:
30. Smart or stupid?:
31. Boring or Fun to be with?:
32. Attractive or Unattractive? : DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, and if u wanna say something extra say it) 33.A psycho? :
35. A nerd? :
36. A Bitch?:
37. Two-faced?:
38. Obnoxious? :
39. Immature?: 40. Mature? :
JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS
41. What do you think I'll be when I grow up?: 42. A) Do you think I'll get married?:

If you do,Who do you think I'll marry?:
43. Who is my best friend? :
44. What song(if any)reminds you of me? : 45. Do I remind you of any characters on TV?: 46. If you could rename me, what would my name be? :
47. Have you ever had a dream about me? : 48. A feature that you like about me:
49. If you could give me anything, what would it be? : 50. how many times do u think i hurt u emotionally? :
51 If we spent a day together..where would we go and what would we do? : 52. If you could describe me in one word, what would it be? :
53. What word do I say all the time?: 54. Is there anything you'd like to say to me? :

i think this quiz is super cool lah! but i can't do it for myself, obviously, so you people out there do it for me okay? thanks! (:

Labels: i'd rather be alone.

HELLO, yesterday duty at the restaurant was fun, and i ahve NO IDEA what to write for my online journal, nothing interesting happened this week! damnnnnnnnnnnnn.what should i write about? some help me please!

Labels: only the hits.

Friday, February 16, 2007

hello, just got a letter from JRL, they said i've got overdue mags, but they didn't even say how much the fine was..i feel so lazy to go there and return it..yay, ystd mum called, finally.talked to dad too. actually, i find that i don't really miss them that much.i've gotten used to life without them, and it isn't hard. it's much better. i thought she called ystd to tell me how much she missed me, but noooooo, she had to nag over the phone, all the way from india. argh!
alright, gtg now, bye.

Labels: the same thing always happens when you're gone.

hello! phoo, so exhausted. ystd after AEM i went back home to fetch my maid, then went to visit my granny since it was her bday! and thanks afinie for toodiie! she gave me a teddy bear, and his name's toodiie! so cute! =DD
anw, brought toodiie wimme even to granny's house, lol! then i ate fruit cake there and meehoon and slept there awhile then my uncle sent me, my sis and my maid home! i slept as soon as i got home.
then today, the CNY concert was lame, jeslin left for indo! happy CNY! (:
then after school went to afinie's house, and we ate maggi mee! yumyum!! and we watched kal ho naa ho!! :DDDDDDDD stayed there till about 6, and just came home! tired. shall go now, bye!

Labels: is this the way it's really going down?

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

hello, skipped AEM today cuz i had stomach cramps earlier, but the truth is, i didnt feel like going. i mean, haniz didn't come, and she's th eone who's always deciding what to do, so what's the point of me going if she isn't there? either way it would be dead boring. i hope weifeng isn't mad at me for leaving him alone, hope he gets along alright, sorry!
today's valentine's day, i got loads of chocs and sweets, thanks to everyone who gave me. =D kay, shall go slee for a while ow, my FIRST afternoon nap since school started! (: ciao!!

HEPPY VEEDAY! (=

Labels: we'll do it all.

heylohhhhhzzz, i just came back from band, and after band we played bottle monkey again, and jeslin chased mitchell around the school, twice, good training for 2.4.
tmr is veeday, i wonder who's gonna give me gifts(: today's dinah's bday, gave her the bag.
bleahh, i hope AEM tmr isnt boring.

how can it be so unfair?
i hate this stupid life.
what's so special?
you don't even deserve it.
hah, as if i do.
i wish the voices in my head would just shut up, they drive me up the wall.
everyday i wonder, could this be the day.
i guess i'll be wondering that the whole time.
it sounds so lame.
you'll never wanna know, trust me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DINAH! :D

Labels: everyday i sit here waiting

Monday, February 12, 2007

hello, so guess what? i got 16/20 for my bio test, yay! today had maths ct, everyone thought it was really difficult, but i thought it was alright, i think there's something wrong with me :/
after school waited for afina to finish her atp then we went to the poly(clinic) for her OBS checkup. wanted to go tiong with her to buy vday gifts, but my stupid sister had to spoil everything, argh.
i suddenly find bio interesting, :D
gtg now, ciao(=

Labels: these are the confessions.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

just came back from the concert. i think..think i'm in love. but no! it can't be!! I CANNOT! no lah i'm not lah, i dunno. shall try to make up my mind. at the end of the concert this guy proposed to his gf in front of everyone, on the stage leh! cuz they're both in the orchestra. so sweet right!! aww, how sweet.
blah. i gtg now, prepare to fail the math test tmr.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

argh, everyone's life seems to be getting better except for mine.why is that? am i doing something wrong?? i wish someone'd write a guidebook on how to lead a life. it's so complicated.
1. be born
2. enjoy your childhood
3. study hard
4. get a good job
5. fall in love
6. get married
7. have a wonderful family
8. live happily ever after

HAH. i bet no on'es life is like this.
got the westwinds concert later, i'm not in the mood to go. i might just sleep through it.
do you have a map? i just keep getting lost in your eyes.
that keeps running through my head, maybe it's a sign. lalala, i'm gonna fail my maths test tomorrow. sometimes i just think i'm not meant to study you know, maybe i just shouldnt go to schoool. it doesnt interest me at all. i might as well use the time to do something useful. sigh.

Labels: and it feels like the end.

helloooooooooooorhhzzzz, today the class gathering was a flop, it shouldn't even be called a gathering. ):
sigh, maybe that stupid "true colours" song is right. ANYWAYZZZZZZZZ, the dance exam also wasnt very good, i think the most i only just pass):
sigh.so tired, adn THANKS CANDICE FOR THE BAG, I LOVE YOU! =D
hah, i bought myself a sling bag from her, YAYZzz.
tomorrow got the westwinds concert, i hope it isnt fboring.
gtg, hmwk calls my name, BYE!

Labels: cause you know i'm better off on my own.

Friday, February 09, 2007

i feel like i've got an attitude problem, my feelings have been bugging me so much lately.
today was super boring and i was so tied, i didnt go for dance, and i've got a splitting eadache, but i can't sleep.
sigh.this was a bad week. tmr got dance exam, please help me do well, pleasey. :/
after that got class gathering, yays!
sunday got the weswinds concert and blah, i'm too tired to blog, so byes! (:

Labels: lost minutes and moments.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

omg i just came back, today had surprise maths test, which was a pretty lame surprise :/
and then i hope i will pass, also had bio test, which was pretty much easy, though i made a lot of mistakes, and i shouldn't have stayed up so late studying for nothing. nuts.
then after school went for AEM, and then went for dance again. finished and went home with sumi, slept on the train. and i have to stay up again, got lots of hmwk and must study, and my sis isnt even home yet, it's like 841pm now.

it can't hurt to dream, can it?
sometimes i wonder about the same things too..

Sunday, February 04, 2007

today's school can suck balls. i'm not in a very good mood now. ): i have to go for tamil ATP, !#@^&*(_
ARGH that's the last damn thing i need now, okay? sigh. did badly for chem test, and i feel so stupid again. and i'm gonna do badly for ss+geog too. i miss my parents LOADS, i just wanna hug my mum now.)=
ihateihateihateihate
-my stubbornness
-today

can you just not be so insensitive please? be considerate, you call yourself a friend? and stop acting so weird. you think too much.stop, okay? just..stop.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SWATHI AND SUMI! :D

Labels: what i gotta do to make you love me?

hello, i just came back from duty at the restaurant, so fun.
i'm so dead, tmr i have to go to school and rush-study for ss+geog, ):
nad i also have to rush and make up a story for my tamil book review so i can hand it in, but i dunno what story to write, SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE!!

Saturday, February 03, 2007

hello, i just came back from dance. i hate the tacher, she only knows how to demoralise us. i'm so bloody tired and i have no time to rest! i just need ONE FREAKING DAY. sigh. i have ss+geog sommon test on mon, and i didn't bring either book home, i know, i'm a genius. and our house scv has been cut, but even if it wasn't i wouldn't even have time to watch it. tmr again practically the whole day got dance, and i'm so lazy to do my hmwk, but if i don't do it now i have to stay up):
i want a robot assistant to do ym hmwk for me and study for me and go to school for me while i stay at home, eat, sleep and become a fat pig.

Labels: do you see me?, hello, my friend

Friday, February 02, 2007

hello, it's 949pm and i just reached home.no seriously. after band the stupid conductor spoiled our moods by lecturing us, everyone was feeling so sian):
anwz, jeslin and me went central and we had dinner at the coffeshop, nice nice, hehe. then i went for dance which was starting at 7, but i left clementi at 7. :/
i reached at like 745 and class ended at late -.- waste my travelling time, and i hate smrt, it fucking pisses me off!
then anyway i was supposed to go to my cuzzie's hse after that, but can you imagine, if i did i would be home by midnight, so i came home and here i am eating tom yam maggi mee :DDDDDD
and my lips are burninggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
i wanna watch supernatural, but i'm sooooo effing tired.
i gotta go drink 4975839467 gallons of water, ciao. :D

Labels: because to you, its just a game.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

hello, i can't blog very often now, cuz my sister has become monster mother and i'm not supposed to use msn and blog. msn i can do secretly but not blog, sorry peoples. anyway, today went for AEM again, we made chocolate again. i can't believe i'm saying this, but i think i'm getting sick of chocolate :0
i hope i didn't fail my maths test, i wanna get it back tmr. i miss my mum and dad):
i think i can become a therapist, wouldn't that be cool? haha.
nowadays all the songs are like so horrible lah, anw i gtg now, try to update soon. ciao! :D