actuality

when i was alone

you came around

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

ta sed qi didnt wana come cos qi sed everyone's changed.well.. i dun mean this in the offensive way but.change comes in everyone's life.without change, life wld be boring.i mean.. if we dun change.. we cant stay the same foreva la.and dont tell me u havent changed qi.im sure everyone knows u have.

anw, today was THE BEST DAY EVA!!! it rocked man.i loved it like hell.aiyah.. lazy to type out details here.. mebbe some other time.byeeeees.. (:

Monday, August 29, 2005

sighs.changed my blog addy.want it to be secret.. im so damn mad at myself today.qi said she doesnt wanna come bck to rg fer tchrs day.. sed she doesnt see a reason to.so i said the reason is so that u can meet up with your friends la.. thn she said "friends who've changed." okay, i admit, i felt guilty.. i wanted to reply but my phone died.so.. i'll say what i have to here.i've been thinking about it alot.. firstly, i wanna say im sorry, qi.really i am.. not joking here.serious.. but.you shouldnt not come cos of me.. at least for the sake of nat n dar and the others.i hope she'll come and read this man.. well.i guess thats all i have to say.. peace.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

heyy! im bored.hmms.. today i was so damn angry with my mum.she forgot to drop me!! wth.. thn make me even ltr fer schl.anw, turned out that thr's no ex day tuhday.yeahhhhhh.. im so bored.thr was a tamil test tuhday.i passed.23.no.. 24/45.hehhs.. lucky she isnt counting it fer exams.phooey.during art tuhday i was a gud girl.i never throw eraser at anyone.but thn mr ho caught yulenda fer throwing.thn she sabo brandon.so mr ho ask them both to sit on the floor.so left only me and ian.so borign.cos usually our grp is very quiet wan.. with brandon and her.but.. whn they go.its SO BORING!!! but qihui so bad.. she sed its very peaceful.actually, rachael and me wanted to go and sit on the floor too.but.. dont knw why we didnt.assembly was horrible. this popguitarist came to play just two blardie english songs.. thn the rest all sing chinese.i was so angry loh.thn i kept cursing that guy.. i asked guru to shout "PLAY ENGLISH SONG" but he dun dare.yeaps.. so like that la.thn went home.. with.rachael miao.. pamela kia gek.yupp.. and stupid blardie nawshein.YOU SUCK.. cant even pay at least one buck fer ma ray bday party.i was scolding her.. thn she sed she got only two bucks fer her lunch.in the end she never even stay bck.. no money to donate but she gt money to buy icecream.I HATE HER!!! sucker.ooh.. bright..

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

today first had chem prac test.was okie.thn had art.brandon n yulenda n ian were being "racist" again.thn rachael damn funny.first she took her scissors n come n cut the v off my pencilcase.thn she broke up some eraser and threw it all over my head.our grp was damn noisy la.surpirsed mr hohohohoho never catch us.thn after recess had eng la.we were doing oral convo prac cos tmr is oral.wish me luck!! thn ms ray called me out to prac convo la.. thn whn i came out everyone started cheering.ohmygod.. so embarrassing!!! so she gave me the topic of valentines day.thn i was like "huh?" so i said some rubbish la.thn they all cheer cheer in the end i only get 12/16.hahahs.. thn had cme n ms ray was toking boiut bgr.and stuff.. thn had mt.thats whn poornima told me she's steading with hari.i was so shocked lo.. at first whn adhi told me i thot i never hear properly.i was like "WHAT? can u say again?" i really cant believe poornima loh.tut tut.. I DONT CARE.: P frankly, i dont give a damn.like i care what shit she gets up to.she can go and do whatever she wants with him for all i care.

thn had maths.thn dnt test.so damn hard.confirm fail.. must pray fer myself.and rachael n miao.

Monday, August 22, 2005

my grandfather is suspected of having either tuberculosis or cancer.the doctor ruled out tb.my family's stupid financial problem is bck again.
today the german ppl left fer germany.

first we had dnt common test.thn sposed to have eng bt ms ray never come so this weird relief tchr came in.mr subra.everyone kept calling him suBRA.hahahs.thn pe.did singapore workout.actually its the one we're sposed to do on tchrs day.or on aces day.whatever.thn the mr yee sed that the girls are better than boys.HA.so he made all the girls do alone.sick of hearing that stupid song.thn recezss.thn bio.joy oh joy ms chong didnt come.bio test postponed to thurs.thn maths.at the end of lesson whn we were greeting her she scolded yulenda cos she wasnt looking at mrs chia whn greeting.lke wth?.dumb.. thn mrs chia wsas damn angry with her la.she started slamming things.siao la she.small thing aso get so hot-tempered.thn history.thn pc.the suBRA came in again.he complimented us!! yayy!!! hope he tells ms ray.thn went home with afina.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

today wasnt bad.it was okay.we had thinking skills first.ms chan told a story about the full circle.you know that show on channel 5.was about this boy.his mother give him away la.cos she gt no $$$ to take care of him right.thn he was sent to this well to do family.but the family is all girls wan.so whn they adopted this boy, they gave birth to a son.afta that they started abusing that boy la.so whn he was 15, he cant take it no more.so he left the home la.thn he started taking up jobs to earn $$$.but thn one day he saw one job in the newsppr la.this massage therapist.so he duno mah.he go for the interview.afta tt i dun really understand the story.he massaged ppl i think.or the ppl massage him.duno.anw, he realised tt he was becoming a prostitute la.thn duno what happened.he killed the employer or something.thn he was sent to gallows.liddat la.

anw afta tt we had mt.test.so mean lo.. she never even tell us she gonna give test.hmph.never get to study.thn recess.was quite funny.cos guru started copying everything miaoling did la.so cos he has a crush on adhi right.so miao shout "i love adhi" thn he aso shout that.so loud okay! hahhahas.in the hall somemore.thn miao ling tried to get him say that in front of raam.(her ex la.) thn he dun want.stopped copying miao.

thn had music.damn funny la.were supposed to split into four grps.do, re, mi n fa.so split alr right.my grp is.me rachael yulenda): theeban thye soon benjamin ian n james la.thn first round sposed to be ;lke a relay liddat.number ourselves one to ten.thn number one sposed to come to the board and write song title.thn number two must write another song title.thn the one with most titles wins la.so we were second.grp do won us by one.hahahs.thn round two was number one must go write one line of a song thn pass down n so on.must finish the song.so do won us again.but unfair.. they wrote humpty dumpty which is damn short lo.we wrote twinkle twinkle little star.. thn re n fa so stupid wrte sch song.HAHAHAS.siao.thn last round is must sing a song la.thn she will judge us according to tone, presentation n duno what la.do sang reach fer the skies.re sang hokey pokey.n fa sang twinkle.so we sang school song.damn fun la.all the grp gt action except us.we all first line only gt action.HAHHAHAS.in the end she judge the points according to the applause we give to the grp.thn our grp nobody clap hahahahs!! thn we clap fer ourselves.like crazy ppl over thr.we were screaming lke hell.thn rachael cant stop larfing.in the end the stupuid tchr gave all gfrps five marks.hmph.waste our voices screaming.sighs.

ltr we had art.art is the most pervertic lesson.cos of brandon la.haiyoh.. he ah.hmms.. i shall not say here.its really too sick la.anw, today mum's coming bck.

why do you have to do this to me? WHY? i feel like crying now.thanks alot.if apologies arent good enough for you, then what is? do i have to fall on your feet and beg? ive heard this many times from people.but none hurt me as much as you did.i really dont want our friendship to end.it was a stupid mistake.i admitted and apologised, but NO.not good enough.i never thought you, of all people would do this to me.after all we've been through.this cant be goodbye.it musnt be.it shouldnt be.i want us to be forever.not just now, not a week, not four years.forever.dont do this to me.you've shattered me.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

im sorry, qi.i removed it alr..

i hate myself.why on earth do i haveta be so sensitive? why so freaking sensitive.why must i think so much.i hate it.hate this.hate myself.why do i gotts be this way.why cant i be different.different from what i am now.i wanna change.i dont wanna stay this way.its getting on my nerves.oh god, i just wana cry.cry it all away.no mood to blog.

Monday, August 15, 2005

i see people with thick plastic white-coloured cute widdle specs.now even joel has got em.but his is nicer.he looks like batman.or mickey mouse hahhas.cos his are white n black.so whn he smiles he shows his buck teeth.hahahs.. today had hist common test.thn also had maths test.. played volleyball fer pe again tuhday.so boring man.. thn hist test was given bck.not common test.so smart right? give us chpt 2 test bck after common test which is on chpt 1 n 2.hmph.fail thn her fault.anw, alot of ppl failed this test.shie boon even gt 0.and its counted fer exams smmore.wth!!! thn went to hand up art sculpture.we called it planet magnet.rofl.so funny man! WALAU STUPID COMPUTER!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGGGGGGHH.pissed.x p wow cool.now its working fine.

Friday, August 12, 2005

eng compre.DIE! never bring home eng textbk.pray that she doesnt go through on mon.study fer history common test.MUST PASS.focus science.stupidd bitch mrs ang.hate her.stupidd rulang pri kids playing bball downstairs so i cant go.and my maid doesnt wana play badminton with me.and i duun wana go swimming alone.so BORED.. yeahh well anw, tmr the german peeps are going msia.boy is it gonna be boring here without them.hmms.. ohwells.yayy!! the rulang pri kids have left.byeeeeee.. finally.im lame.)): hmm.. whn will candice come online.me wanna ask her smth.orangey orangey orange.BOOOOOOO.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

whee.hmms.. lemme see what happened today.i went to school, and rachael told me the reason why she didnt come school yest.overslept.like wth la.. pls.can still come school lo.nvm.. anw, lets see.. ohhyahhs.first we had thinking skills.yupp.ms chan was scolding us for the first ten mins or so.cos of duno what rubbish la.thn we played some quite fun game you know.yepps.. thn went fer mt.bo-ring.. thn reces thn music.bt the ms yeo never come so we had this stupid tchr hu asked us to do work.WORK.stupid work.whatever.but i didnt do.and yulenda started talking to me again.lke wtf? i guess she felt abit awkward too.im not complaining.thn had art.walau art is damn fun okay.thn miao never bring sculpture.i duno how she can forget.but cute + amazing mr ho didnt kill us!!! how cute of him! hahahahhs.guess he has to live upp to his reputation huhh.lol.. thn went fer assmebly whr we had this stupid talk on theft n all.so dumb and boring man.. thn afta that bought icecream n went home.thn ate nicenice cup noodles fer lunch.mmmmm.........
orangey pinky reddy beigy BOO.((:

got back chem and english common test today.chem i got 18/30 and english got 18/30.hahahhs.coincidency.i think today one of the german ppl wants to go straighten her hair.anw, cos on saturday theyre leaving fer msia.truly aaaaaaaasiiiiiiiaaaaa.hahahhs.lame.anw, ive decided to not care about that THING.below.the posts below.i cant be bothered.third post of the day!! whoopee!!!

this is what happened.im telling rachael what happened on msn.(copy n paste)

how come you act like this.like you just dont care at all. says:
thn today we were jus toking la.thn she was lke "u la go n spread all the secret abt candice"

how come you act like this.like you just dont care at all. says:
n i was lke "wtf?!"

It's not the life it seems. says:
HUH?

how come you act like this.like you just dont care at all. says:
so i smsed candy n she nvr reply yet

how come you act like this.like you just dont care at all. says:
anw

It's not the life it seems. says:
yah?

how come you act like this.like you just dont care at all. says:
yulenda bcame bitchier by the day.chem quiz she nvr take ppr fer me.so i was like "eh why nv take for me"

how come you act like this.like you just dont care at all. says:
n she was lke "i must take fer u mehhh.u sposed to take urself."

It's not the life it seems. says:
haha

how come you act like this.like you just dont care at all. says:
thn i was friggin angry

how come you act like this.like you just dont care at all. says:
thn

It's not the life it seems. says:
test??!!!

how come you act like this.like you just dont care at all. says:
she sed "u think what i ur maid ah." thn i was lke "oi i alw take fer u right" thn we nv tok fer the whole lesson

how come you act like this.like you just dont care at all. says:
me: is isabel angry wit mee cos i spread?
she: dunno.
me: tell la.
she: i scared to tell u anything in case u spread le.
me: anw u dun even knw why candice dun like u.
she: i knw.but i cant tell.
me: tell la.i alr knw what.
she: i knw more than u lo

this is the point whr i got so mad i felt like strangling her.but good frens dun strangle each other and im a good fren.((: its all candice's fault.im sorry candice.

WALAU I HATE YOU YOU STUPID BITCH YULENDA.you suck!!!!!!! i duno how she knw tt i spread.n i nvr even spread.anyhow say.its cos of candy.she ask me help her.argh.i shld nvr have told her.no.yulenda shld nvr have told ME.i hate her foreva n eva n eva!!!!!!!!!! argh.BITCH.SLUT.wtf lo.

guess what.i found out tt my secret admirer is normal acad.smoker.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHS.hahahs.omg.so funny.i cant blieve it.lol.reddy reddy red.BOO.(:

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

today i woke up at 9.30am.thn my aunt called asked if i wanted ta go watch charlie n choc factory.so i went.its not very nice.so colourful until it almost looks animated.and johnny depp looks horrible.yucks.><
thn on tues went to miaoling's hse after much pleading.her hse is so damn fun.hahhas.big deal, i say that to everyone's hse i go to.((: anw we did the project.well mostly rachael did it not us.hahahs.i was on msn and kept complaining abt whn miao's fwens wldd come with the cup noodles cos i was starving.thn rachael finished n cleaned up.actually we didnt really knw what we were doing.at first whn we were painting the ball we kept brushing each other by accident.hahahhas.so funny.i gt paint on my ear n hand.rachael got on her kickers jeans and i tink her hand aso.miao got the most.she got a widdle cross on her nose and a dot on each cheek.yupp.. thats about it.after that went to watch ndp.thn left at 7.30pm for sheares bridge to go see fireworks live.but there was a massive traffic jam so we cld only see through the trees.tut tut.. poor german ppl.anw, they went sentosa today.sis jus went to pick them up.yepps.thn thats all lahh.. bluey bluey blue.BOO.:D

Monday, August 08, 2005

wahhahas.my second post of the day.cos i keep forgetting things.mum left for myanmar ytrd.so its jus me dad sis n german peeps.thn last week i think.yupp.guru told me i have a secret admirer.like wtf? how am i supposed to believe that.i so did not.but thn he was like "dun blieve dun blieve lohh." sighs.he dun wana tell who it is either.but i dun really care.i have more imprt things to worry about.like what happens if i cant go to miaoling's hse tmr?.i will be so dead.my name will be last in the project, i will get the lowest mark, and will have given the LEAST contributions.like HELLOOOO.i was the one who came up with the idea.but i guess thats very little contributions to you, huh?): FINE.well what else am i supposed to do.not my fault my parents are being so freakish and not trusting me.

to do list:
_study!! revise!!!
_pay attention.
_stop being dense.and stop spreading your denseness.
_stop acting cool.xP
_stop sneaking and doing illegal stuff.
_stop lying.
_stop being so worried abt what others think of youu.
_stop eating icecream.
_save $$$
_stop being an idiotic fake asshole and stop pretending.

oh boy.):

Sunday, August 07, 2005

yeahh so today school celebrated national day.we had to standd so long in the hall until one guy fainted.hahahs.lol.. anw.ohhyahhs.the jogathon finish alr.i came in duno what position.31 to 75.so lousy hahhhas.thn so today afta assembly thr was collage making competition.quite fun to get glue and all on our hands.the theme was hearts and minds of singapore.thn afina said draw one heart n one mind.hahhas.any way we did this thingy with the heart in the middle thn four hands touching the heart.yahhs.thn tmr sposed to go miaoling's hse to do art sculpture.nt sure if i can go.. i better be able to.if not how to give the ball.sighs.adhi wana stop steading wit raam liao.hahahhas.ok i dun care.she finda him irritating.so today i helped her send nasty smses to him afta sch whn we went central.phooey.hahahas.haii.i feel that rachael was ignoring me today le.nt sure.. mebbe my imagination.but i jus hope she dun keep on doing that.but towards gg home time she was more friendly.hmms.. duno lahh.greeny greeny green.boo.(:

Thursday, August 04, 2005

today is friday.was quite fun.first had thinking skills.had to solve some mystery thingy on the murder of tycoon.yeahh.thn had double mt.was ok too.thn recess thn music!!! we listened to loads of songs.jay chou and siti nurhaliza(sorry haniz she sux:P) thn still gt beyonce n usher n green day and wanted to listen to true bt bell rang halfway so had to go for art.thn during art yulenda-i sit beside her.): anw, she told me abt a convo tt she n bel had.

yulenda: why candice like so angry wit mee ahh.
isabel:of course she angry what.she dun like u mahh.

so isabel blabbered the biggest secret ever.and now candy like gt nofrens.bel even sed candice not pretty.?!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and shufei dun like candy cos candy copy her.ohmygod.all this jus cos of yulenda.fucking bitching freaking yulenda.thank god they didnt pull me in.i dont wana be involeved.phew! anw, tmr is the jogjogjogathon.yayy so excited.pinky pinky pink.boo.(:

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

today is the thirdd of august.yeahh.we had chem today.did spa skill experiment today.thn had art.rachael and me heard john lim scolding mr ho during recess."im going to have to press two charges on ur son" or smth liddat.gosh.didnt even knw he had a son in ntss.anw, sat is the jogathon and i planned for athi to go out with SOMEONE after the jogathon.clap clap clap!!! so happy fer her.now me and poornima are experts at matchmaking.lol.anw today after sch went to kfc with candy.thn we saw joel theeban brandon shaun wilson thr.yahhs.thn we two like pretend we dunno them.so mean right? anw they aso never say hi.only wilson.hmph.A.N.T.I.S.O.C.I.A.L.. blehh.OHHYAHHS.the germany peeps came yest.theyre staying fer 3 wks.andd guess what they bought for us? HALF-BLOOD PRINCE!!!!!!!!!!! omgomgomgomg.so sweet!!!!!!!! it must have been damn ex lohh.so now we have two copies.lol.hope i get to keep one fer meself.so thrs two gerls.one is caroline and one is anna.and theyre both so damn pretty.really.and theyre so nice aso.yupp.(:

ok lahh better go now.muahhh.((:

Monday, August 01, 2005

okay.well.. today was bday.big deal.. i didnt even feel special.thn evryone sang bday song fer me n hoeson.yahh.sighs.whatever.today was the worst day evr.. common test was freaking hardd.thn pe playedd volleyball.thn.. erm.maths thn stupid history thn pc.thn went home with afina.wanted to reach home as quickly as possible.yepps.thats all.. dun feel like updating.had the worst bday evr.how i wish i cld be a small kid again.thn dun have to worry abt anythingg.haii.