actuality

when i was alone

you came around

Thursday, February 17, 2005

itt getts horribbler n worrser n terribbler.. tts me. i mean.. i was startin to feel better.. but. i justt dont wana tok boutt it.. but i wana gett it outt of me. cos the more i dont tell. the worse i feel.. i dontknw wat to do.. ive nvr been putt in a situation lykke dis bforr. so.. wat shld i do. somebdy tell me.. mye hearts gnna burst.

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

yayys!!!! mr koh gt a baby boii on 11 febbie..

dont worry its still the same blog.. yeahhs. i lurf pierre. for once im nott so deppressed.. u knw itts gdd. ohhs..

Sunday, February 13, 2005

its valenttines dayye!!! hu's urr valenttine?? showw the purrson yew lurf howw muchh yew lurf themss.. geeve themss flowerrs ..showerr themss withh blessinggs. n chockkies!!! hahhas. todayye dis perverted tchr came to ourr class lohh.. n he's lykke sayyin "dun haf sex beforr urr married" perverse rite.. i knw!!! n he was lykke tchin us hw to fall in lurf n all. ugh.

stoopid. **

Thursday, February 10, 2005

so shut up shut up shut up ..don't wanna hear it.. get out get out get out ..get out of my way.. Step up step up step up. You'll never stop me ..Nothing you say can change.. You'll never bring me down. yeah! i miss hearin simple plan..

i hate my life. bt im happie. im sad. bt im larfin. i wana die. bt im livin. one hand's in mye pockket n d otha's hailin a cabb.

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

harlohhs.. im bck. today finally gt to see fag.. n evryone else. bt duno wen i'll nxt see them again. then wen we were goin hm. qi hugged me so hard it hurt. seriously.. ow. bt its alrite. then.. urmms. oh yahhs. happie cny to evryone. n then im bck to depression. cos evry tm i start cheering up.. someting brings me down again. i mean.. does evryone want me to hav a death wish?? yeppx tts bout it.

Monday, February 07, 2005

shit shit shit shit shit. i dun care. i shall shit all i want n swear to death. i hav lived long enuf. one more day in class n i shall seriously kill myself. eat shit n die young. tts wat mr koh keeps sayin. duh it isnt tru. bt wateva. i will b happie wen i get to c my frens once again. wen i get to hang out with fag. wen my parents finally let go of me. wen im free. well de one ting tts fun bout sch is band. yup. one. too bad its only twice a wk. oh yepps today i met mye chit. nth special. he's just a stoopid doofus hu tinks he's so smart. shit him. just shit all de way. i hp i nvr hav to c his ugly face again. oh shit. i hp i pass my bio test. n my geog test. n my math test. lucky this wk no common test. sec 1 so hard. i cant even cope. sigh. o well.

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

mann. im so sad.. wana die. hate my life.. i cant control myself nemore. its lykke im another purrson. dun wana go bck to sch. dun wana wear tt stoopid uni again.. dun wana see mrs chia. dun wana see ms ang n ms chong. dun wana hear mr koh's jokes nemore.. dun even wana see ms ray. i hate me. i hate newtown. i hate.. stoopid. ARGGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh god. shit.. shoot me. just shoot. me. i hate brooding.. about. evryting.

n evryone has to make my life worse.. cant they just leave me alone.

yayy!!!!!!!!!! i got into band!!!!!!!!! woohoo! im playin de trumpet. but.. i suck at physics. n my mum is so gnna kill me. arrgh.. sumting always has to ruin my happiness. well nuthin else interesting happened. .. arrgh. duno lahhs. wateva. my life is so boring. i hate my life. i hate my life. i hate mr koh. i hate jac n isabel. they'r such vainpots. oh yeah. tues we had pe. den we were doin high jump. so miss vainpot. jac. dint wana go cos she was too busy giggling. n we all gt a big yellin at frm ms ray cos of her. n she's sposed to b de monitress!!! n she n isabel r always makin frens wif all de upper sec boys. n they keep hangin around outside our class. man.. i hate her!!

she n her stoopid bf qixian. hmph. they'r always standin together outside de class. arrgh!!! n bcos yesterday mr koh scolded her for not high jumpin. so today she didnt even pay attention during mr koh's lesson. haiiyoh. does she tink mr koh will forgiv her?? yah rite.