actuality

when i was alone

you came around

Friday, September 30, 2005

now rachael's talking to me again.im so damn confused la.mebbe it was cos of the testi i gave her.so what.serves her right.she didnt mention anything about it though.yulenda said rachael seems very polite to me today.i think the only reason she talked to me was cos today got dnt and its only two of us.

FINiSHED DNT PROJECT! so happy.we worked so hard and finished at arnd four.just rachael and me.then we and pamela's grp who also finished had a little celebration.nothing much.cos we were famished and the schl was deserted.yeah thn yulenda and me went to walk in the rain.monday got english exam.brought all my books h0me.

Thursday, September 29, 2005

stayed bck fer dnt.rachael keeps ignoring me.wtf la.i cant stand it! she say mood swing here mood swing there.whatever.i dont give a shit.im mad at her.she left us during dnt just to go home with brandon, ian and miaoling.haiyoh.so angry.somemore never even tell me.just say bye to afina and run off like that.still got the nerve to call me and ask me help her ask ms lee whn to give dnt file.she ah.doesnt care about people's feelings.well.two can play that game.hehehehehe.lets see how you feel.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

my exams are next week.and believe it or not, I HAVE NOT STARTED REVISING.i am so dead.here's my timetable.:

monday-english paper 1 + 2.
tuesday-tamil paper 1 + 2.
following monday-maths paper 1 + 2.
tuesday-history.):
wednesday-science(chem + bio + physics)
thursday-dnt
friday-ART.

subjects i am currently failing would be physics and tamil and bio.so im basically doomed for science paper.i have no interest in history and english and dnt.they suck.whats left is MATHS and ART.wish me luck!

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

the electricity in our schl is damn lan loh.it keeps going off on off on.so sucky.some wire trip or whatever.especially after recess la.so annoying.liddat can dun study alr what.hahahs.today there was a full power cutoff at 4pm.maybe tmr it'll be okay again.hope not.hahahs.got so much homework, so many tests.haiyoh so sian.so lazy to do.thn got no time to study myself.sighs.. ytrd i fell off the swing at my house.i was swinging damn high thn i fell on my back.OUCH.so freaking pain.thn the pain stretched to my neck and all.thn today during dnt whn i was polishing the acrylic i bent down for a long time thn i cldnt stand up staright.so pain!!! lucky now all the pain is gone.scare me.i thought i broke my back or something.hehhs.

today so freaking embarrassing.after schl we stayed bck fer dnt la.thn i was gonna drill the acrylic for the first time.so i didnt knw that ure sposed to clamp it.thn ian was thr and he bet me 50 cents i wont be able to do it.so i was like ok la.thn i drilled but i didnt hold the acrylic and suddenly it started spinning like a helicopter! hahahahs!! thn brandon and ian standing there laughing like idiots.i was so embarrassed i wanted to melt there.there were so many sec 1s there okay.somemore the mr chew scold me so loud.aiyoh.. so embarrassing.now everyone will know im the girl who cant drill acrylic.sighs..

Thursday, September 22, 2005

sighs.just felt like posting again.i wanna cut my hair.shld i cut it? hmms.. but thn i'll look ridiculous.but whatever i do, i look ridiculous.like.. an AH MA.eew.. scully turn out look like jasmine.yucks!!! i wont dare to show my face again.hahahs.. i hate that.hate this la.hate my stupid face.i wish i can change my appearance.MAJORLY.. sighs.

everyone in schl keeps talking chinese.even whn they knw i am there.like wth.its so damn sucky.. i cant stand it loh.today i nearly shout at them "oi can please speak english anot!!" one of these days i will.its damn rude kay.they dun even knw how i feel.but.. last time wh i go with rachael they all.they speak english.but.. rachael wants to be with miaoling.so i let her la.now must go with all these chinese speaking people.

yesterday i went to play on the swing at my house there.thn me and my friend so bored.we were looking for some fun.thn cos the swing is near the swimming pool.so there was these two shirts hanging on the wall near the shower place la.thn i thot the owners were in the toilet right.thn i took one of the shirts and threw it onto a plant.hahahahs.. thn i faster run away.thn whn my friend caught up with me, she said that actually the owners were in the jacuzzi and they saw what i did.ohmygod! scared if he report to security guard how? aiyoh.how cld i have been so stupid.sighs..

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

yulenda said i follow rachael cos i have no choice and cos i have no friends.erm.. well.okay.. i dont mind being alone either.thats fine with me.its peaceful.hahahs okay whatever.

Monday, September 12, 2005

OHMYGOODNESS.i just found out that there are sec three people in my school who take ecstasy.so scary!!! maybe more.AND i found out that certain people in my schl masturbate!!!!! excuse me, but EEW.and i didnt even know the meaning of the word till isabel told me.pervertic!! today i found out that yulends doesnt like me too.hahahs.cos of rachael.because of this piece of news, i was quite moody after recess.yeah.. okies.here's a dumb joke isabel sent me:

ah lian cooks salad.she follows the instructions in the cookbook.after finishing the dish, she takes off her clothes and serves it naked.because the instructions in the cookbook were "serve without dressing".

hahahs.. stupid right.lol.(:

Thursday, September 08, 2005

i like this skin, but nt sure if its workin.the song thingy isnt, though.

so far i have finished:

1. chem ws
2. 3 maths ws
3. 0.5 tamil wkbk
4. 0.75 eng cloze.

AND TODAY IS FRIDAY! hmms.i have 10 np articles and 0.25 of eng cloze and half of tamil wkbk to complete by today.oh man.. im not interested in doing any.cept english maybe.sighs.. how how how.i have to overcome the laziness monster.actually, now that i put all the homework down, it doesnt seem so much.and i have to STOP HUNCHING!!

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

today after maths me rachael and miaoling went to tiong.thn went to kfc and rachael lent me money to buy a zinger cos she was afraid i might faint frm lack of food.thn walked arnd the shops.after we walked, it got quite boring.so we didnt knw what to do.. went seven eleven thn went home.but we decided to wait till many trains had passed.and left tiong bahru station only at 1.15.hahahs.. got so much maths homework!! mrs chia la.give so much.. ohmygod.how to finish everything.SO STRESSFUL.. somemore exams start 3 weeks after school reopens.sighs.. must start studying now itself alr.must buck up.

something to say.i think my old friends are angry with me or something.old friends as in qihui they all.. isit?not sure.cos.. the way they act towards me is as if ive done somehting to offend them.like as if they knw somehting i dont.. sighs.i dont know.maybe its just my imagination?.but.. it really seems that way.well guys.. if thr's something you need ta tell me, just say it.

isnt it weird how friendship works? i mean, its like one minute you're saying "lets be frens foreva.nothing cn come btw us." and the next thing, you're at loggerheads.i dont understand at all.
just nnow i was locked outside my house.hahahs.. was actually quite funny.cos.. i just went downstairs to buy foolscap right.and whn i came up, my maid was gone.so i ring the bell, i shout for her, blah blah.in the end i was sitting outside for like 15 mins.haiyoh.waste my time.sld have taken the key frm her.so there i was, sitting outside of my own house, in ntss pe attire, waiting.. waiting...... til finally she comes.phooey.tmr me rachael and miao gg tiong.byeeeeeeeees..(:

Monday, September 05, 2005

IM DEPRESSED.SAD.feel like crying.. nobody wants me, everybody hates me, im just a stupid idiot.i want to wallow in my misery.no one cares for me.no one notices me.no one knows me. no one wants me. no one likes me.no o ne loves me.everyone is obsessed in themselves.i've held this pain for so long.with no one knowing.

i think shufei hates me.cos yulenda said she very angry cos i told candice shufei dun like her.. but.if she's angry wit me.. she sld be mad at joanne too right.yulenda said joanne told candice first.so why is everyone so biased with me?

i think isabel hates me.for the same reason.nowadays she dun talk to me.especially that day.candice ask her go home with me.thn she went first together wit yulenda la.so whn i caught up wit thm and we walked together, they switched to chinese.hmph.. trying to make me feel extra.im glad joanne came along.

i think i hate yulenda.no la.. i KNOW.hahahas.she sucks.bitch. :P
watching quack pack.on disney.hey dont blame me im bored.wheeeee.. saw jacky in schl today.thn immediately smsed miao.hahahs.. i knw she will die if she's nt informed wan.hahahs.hmms..
think huiying hates me.sometimes.. she's nice to me.but some times not.. confused la.sighs.. why cant someone just tell me if they hates me huh.why must they make me go find out myself.thn i get even more hurt right.stupid la.. waste time + energy.sighs.feel like crapping.crapcrapcrapcrapcrap bleh.

today i saw a girl at lakeside who looked exactly like tricia.cept she was taller and thinner.abit.. but the nose eyes everything the same.cept she was in cgss nt gess.yeaps.. i am so jealous!!! miao got an extra piercing! ON BOTH EARS.unfair!!!!!!!! i want i want i want!! hmph.

this holiday is so boring.there's so much homework.. anw, i gt my report book back.brilliant me gt 4 a2s, 1 b3 and 2 c5s.woohoos!!!!! so happy.. yayy.but stupid miss ray.she said i've slackened in my attitude towards work.crazy.whatever.she's a freaking biased bitch.: P hate her.