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Thursday, May 31, 2007

everyone i know is overseas!
afina's left for sarawak, ian's gone to taiwan, and jeslin's going to indo soon. okay lah not everyone ahhaha.
but it makes a big difference coz my mum made me write out this timetable for the whole of june and i had to write EXACTLY.WHAT.i was gonna study each bloody day. omg this is going to be like the bestestest holiday ever, aren't you so jealous of me? i'd rather go foe band than stay at home and study now.
haha did i just say that?
hmm, i like jason mraz. today had band and yeah, after that had lunch with jeslin.
i have many discounts to use, and i hope i'll get to use them before they expire. anyone wanna book me for a movie on 1st august?
-AHEM- hahaha! i got $2 off movie ticket, lucky?
yay yay yay, i'm so excited for my birthday, even though there's more than a month before it arrives.
-chants birthday! birthday! birthday!- okay i have to go study now, byezzz.

Labels: i guess i'm stuck in this mad world.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

HELLO!
yesterday was the gathering, went to tseng kia's house! was quite sad when we left, cause we probably won't be seeing him again. ):
we ate and ate and ate and watched many many movies, omg he has so many vcds and dvds and whatnot! and we talked too. i like his house!
quite..zen.
HAHA! bye afina!
have fun in sarawak! i haven't shown my mum my report book :/ scared.
showed my dad, but as usual he didn't say anything.
couldn't he even ASK why i got an E? i'd appreciate the concern.
yeah and i'm stuck at home the whole day till saturday. i'm swimming more these days, coz i have nothing else better to do.

Labels: and you know that can't be bad.

Monday, May 28, 2007

okay so now i feel even more stupid, cause yesterday my cousin came over.

and i was like asking him about his results and stuff, and turns out he got like 9 POINTS for his L1R4 and he got all As and 3 Bs. :/ should i be worried?

cause i tried his amath exam and it was shitz easier than ours, even though i still couldn't do his paper cause i forgot everything. but yeah still, NO WONDER he got 30 marks more than me for amaths. -.-

and he has less questions too, so unfair! and he got like 17th in class, but i think his school's standard is below ours. or am i just tryinna make myself feel better?

i just realised i get dizzy when i look at the keyboard for too long.

well that's all, tmr class gathering! hope it goes well, byeeeeeeeeeeeez!
oh and i think i'm getting addicted to this online game, runescape. yes i know it's damn stupid but i find it kinda thrilling and irritating at the same time hahaha! okay bye must go play runescape.

Labels: whispers 'hello i miss you quite terribly'.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

went to watch the singapore arts festival opening tmr, my sister was in that human net thing, the last pic.

I hate it when my aunt comes over, she always asks for my marks so she can compare it to my cousin's.

i felt so embarrassed telling them i got a D and E. my mum was like "you got a D? why didn't you tell me?"

she sounded mad. i'm gonna die when i show her my ppr. afina, my ppr's at your house! ://

i know it sounds corny, but i really don't think my future lies in studies. i just have absolutely, zilch, interest, in, studying. and my mum keeps blaming me for everything. yeah, sure, everything's my fault cause my stupid sister's a genius and i'm stupid.

Labels: the green flash.

Friday, May 25, 2007

hello!

i watched POTC today. after school, went to afina's house then took loooooooooooooong bus ride to vivo.

we wanted to watch spideyman 3 but only the first 2 rows were left, imagine sitting through the whole movie with your neck looking up :/yeah so we bought for pirates, and boy was it awesome, johnny depp is @$#^%#^$ funny and orlando bloom is so so so so handsome! poor joanne had to watch it again, not like 2 days in a row hahah!1

then we ate from seven eleven, the store and more and went to play in the pool cause we had like an hour before the movie started. play play play then we went back up and then outside the cinema there was like this weird guy lah! dressed in this tribal sorta costume, with peacock feathers and stuff, and he was like standing like a statue, and not even smiling, then he'll just move his head to look around.then we wanted to take a pic with him so afina, joanne and me were like sorta hiding behind his feathers and mocking his pose, then he suddenly shook his feathers!

HAHAHAHAH damn scary, we ran away LOL!

then this disco guy and his girlfriend i think, with a big head, came and we took pics with them! then we smuggled seven eleven stuff into the theatre and pirates started!

the people behind us were like drinking tiger beer! yeah thats all i think, went home with joanne thenit's upstairs, the disco guy, but it's quite blur. BLOGGER GOT BIG PROBLEM.

Labels: thought you should know.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

today no pe.): i was like looking forward to it, i have been, since EXAMS. stupid sec twos, why couldn't they have gone to pick rubbish at the beach? yesterday? or next year? HMPH. after school had the superband thing, and candice and me were like the only two girls there ahaha! then its like allllllllllllll guys. so we sat right in front hahah. then the person in charge or whoever, shit i forgot his name, yeah he briefed us and stuff. i think i'm like the only idiot girl playing drums. ah who cares. then after that me, joanne and amanda went to town and ate fish n co, then went to cut amanda's hair, blabla! thats all, i just went down to swim! HEH so refreshing, i feel so fresh! tmr POTC'S coming out! heh and shakti come back soon i miss you! hope you aren't dying or something at OBS. if you are, just think of me okay? :D 2 MORE DAYS!

Labels: she's got a lip ring and 5 colours in her hair.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

today was like, zoom, finish, haha as if. had band after school which wa slike no fun. i hate hate hate mr neo a lot. jeslin asked em to go to indonesia with her in june, and she said she was serious, but i dunno if she really was serious, so i msged her to ask if she was serious, and if she was serious, haha then i'll ask my mum. I WANNA GOOOOO! I don't think i've ever gone to indo before. if everything works out, how cool will it be! but i've never been overseas without my parents or family before. serious. whooooo. yay tmr got pe, i misssssss peeeeeee. 3 MORE DAYS BABY!

Labels: and i'll hold on to it.

Monday, May 21, 2007

hello! there's something wrong with the laptop, com and tv and practically everything and everyone in my house right now, so i won't be blogging much. today went for the learning journey after school, how boring was it. the company was alright though. why is it that i always get stuck with boring things? sucks. mrs lam didn't come today, whoopee. after the LJ went to ikea to buy plywood or something, which was a total watse of time, cause a) the only thing we bought there was hotdogs,yummy and b) couldn't find plywood, and it was alr like 630, ): come on, 4 more days to holidays! 4444444444444444444444444!

Labels: it gets hard but it won't take away my love.

Friday, May 18, 2007

today after school was fun, kabbalah -2 went to amanda's house and played. haha we were like all straightening my hair, i so want a straightener, but i don't wanna rebond my hair, if you get what i meannnn. yeah then jiayi left early oh and we had yummy pizza and mee for lunch. (: then we went down to play like, 5 minutes of tennis then we played seesaw at the playground then we, or rather i, got pushed into the pool and yeah. i got all drenched and i pulled joanne in too. then we wanted to go back up to get amanda's big float but the stupid security guard said that a resident called and said we were playing in the pool in school uni so he scolded us cause we were screaming like hell and he asked us to mop up the lift lobby cause we were dripping water all over it! BASTARD! then poor amanda's maid had to wipe the floor, and we wanted to help her, but we would've wet the floor even more. then we sat at this tower thing in the playground and talked, then we dried a little, went back to amanda's house, changed and went home! then joanne and me were like wearing our school basketball tshirts! haha so funny. then joanne was like saying "later the bball ah lians from our school see us then they wanna come beat us up!" hahahah! picturesssssss! up there.

Labels: baby we can make sweet love.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

yoyoyo! today we had this interview about the food innovation AEM we did in the beginning of the year, so we got to miss like half the school day. i wasn't actually very excited to go for it, but went anyway. went to spore poly and met the people who organised the interview i think. they treated us to lunch! at this expensive restaurant at sp called food haven. I WISH I HADN'T EATEN LUNCH IN SCHOOL ALREADY. i only ate a banana split there, and MAN WAS IT NICE. there was caramel ice cream! YUMMYYYY. afina you should have been there, then we can have our banana split fight! remember? haha! LOL. then we went to the kitchen place and the channel 8 news people came and they filmed us "working". then poornima and me had to do an over-the-phone interview for the tamil radio :p yes, yes, i spoke in tamil. so if anyone wants to watch, tonight on channel 8 and channel 5 news, and on the tamil radio at 6, 7 and 10pm. if you can understand tamil, haha. i failed chem! expected, but like..i failed both my sciences, and i got like last in class for bio. i better buck up, but i've got no inspiration! seriously, i'm like just going to school for..i don't know! sigh.

Labels: i need inspiration; not another negotiation.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

sorry, i can't really think of much that happened this week, cause i'm kinda blogging in a rush. but, HAPPY BIRTHDAY IAN! THANKS FOR LAMING WITH ME AND, YEAH, LAMING WITH ME. YOU ROCK! :D ps, better remember my fave colour! idiot.
i.feel.so.stupid. this has been the worst, + stupidest week ever. ever. i wish i could just tell someone about EVERY THING tht happened this week, i wish i could just pick out a random stranger from the street and shout at him'her and tell him'her everything stupid that has happened to me. i feel so stupid. i dropped this whole packet of gobstoppers on the wooden floor in tfa today, and it was so noisy, and once again, i embarrassed myself. what the hell is wrong with me? oh and you should read the book PS, i love you. it's damn nice, but sadly, it's making me feel stupider. i wish i could just take a break. a long one. i don't see the bloody point of going to school cause i know i'm not going to use it in future, nevermind everyone, I am not going to use anything i learned.

Labels: YOU DON'T.

Friday, May 11, 2007

and my favourite! despite afina kicking me.

HAHA AFINA FELL OFF THE PILLAR THINGY.

Labels: crazy, let's do something maybe.

i hate my sister. i wish she never came back from china. WHAT DID I DO? why do i have to deal with her tantrums? arghhhhhh. i hate her i hate her i hate her i hate her i hate her i hate her. #@%^$&*$&% i can't wait for ze holidaysssssssss. i wish i was going overseas): and going to the airport ystd didn't make me feel any better. tonight gonna watch krishnarpanam at victoria theatre i think. YAY CHAN'S COMING :D

Labels: in my heart it's so clear now.

three words: EXAMS ARE OVER.
yay! hahaha actually i shouldn't be the one celebrating after exams cause i feel i've been celebrating during exams too. :/ just hope it doesn't affect my results!
after school me, jeslin and haniz went to haniz's house and played pool! then, afina came and we played badminton then jeslin went home then we took pictures then we played pool again then we wanted to watch a malay movie which, according to afina, SUPPOSEDLY HAD SUBTITLES. were the subtitles invisible like peter petrelli afina? cause i couldn't see any! HAHA. so afina and me heroe-d on youtube while haniz watched the movie and CRIED.hahahah!
on the other hand, my sister's coming back today! omg ten days without her have been..wait a minute. was it ten days? i swear it felt longer than that. time doesn't usually pass so slowly. ): she's coming at 11 at night so we're gonna pick her up. yup that's all, i wanna go goo-goo-ga-ga over milo ventimiglia on youtube if i can, byeeeeeeeeeeessssssss!

Labels: something about you now.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

i had a damn freaky dream last night lah.playing uno on msn with ian now, I WON AHAHAH.i won again! oh yeah back to my dream. cause my house lift, there are only buttons for 2,4,6,8,10,12. so this girl in my condo was like supposed to go to heaven cause it was her 'time". then she kept delaying by talking to me then i asked her to go then she took the lift to level 5 then i saw her in the sky and she waved at me.then i went somewhere lah like later, then i saw this body falling form the sky(hers) and i was on fire! so freaky! then it turned into a movie and yeah, so weird, lol. and what's weirder is i never remember my dreams but i remembered this one. woohoo i'm like the master of uno i beat ian 5 games to 1 yay!

Labels: uno is addictive.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

so, i was doin amaths before this but i didn't feel the maths hype i usually feel when i'm doing amaths so i decided to use the com cause i haven't used it for one whole day OMG. shall not talk about papaers which have finished, come on vrin, just TWO.MORE.DAYS. TWO! JUST TWO. i'm like on tenterhooks waiting for exams to finish, i'm just waiting to relax. even though i havent been very stressed up during this period :/ yes okay i'm talking to myself. i better go and continue the amaths cause i wanna sleep. i feel sooooo, floaty.

Labels: better put your fingers back to the keys.

Monday, May 07, 2007

it's amazing i can still blog, wheng eog and chem are tomorrow. :/ i like seeing PDAs. public displays of affection. call me sick, but i think it's sweet! okay fine whatever. after school went to libby with niz and afina. then we ate at the libby cafe and the cashier person punk guy likes haniz HAHAH. yeah then studied and ate more then came home and im sposed to be studying but who cares!

Labels: in a second you'll be wrapped around my finger.

Friday, May 04, 2007

it's saturday morning! and i'm supposed to be studying but since i'm alone at home, what the heck. THE LAPTOP HAS GONE CRAZY and i have to use this old slow com): wht did i do, laptop? :/ yay just one more week and exams are over. come on, you can do it!

yesterday went to libby with chan and lalalala. then when we were going home we saw this girl and her bf and chan was like "i hate that girl, why does she have such a hot boyfriend?" HAHA. that cracked me up and took my mind off things. i wanna think of that everytime i see a hot guy. LOL. today was maths and ss. maths was okay, hope i can egt A if i dont have careless mistakes or my methods are wrong or something. ss was fucky. i'm so dead for source based cause i wrote like 5 lines for each question :/ but essay was alright. please just let me pass :/
after school jeslin joanne and me went to eat at jurong point, then they came to my house. we played badminton and basketball. then there were these two scary butteflies that came near us and joanne and me took off like marathon runners! haha it was scary!! we watched spongebob then they went home. YAY monday no school, but roy tan HAD to put geog lesson on that day. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. ):

Labels: you caught me in a lie.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

is this the end of our friendship? or have we just become hi-bye friends? or do we have to put on a fake front? i dont know what to do.

Labels: i wish you'd just slapped me right there.

i feel like such a fool. an idiot. IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT, PLEASE. it's all me. i'm the insensitive one. i wasn't even there for you when you needed me most, I'M the one at fault. i would be freaking angry if my so called best friend did that to me. i've really let you down. i'm not tryinna be emo or whatever but this is how i feel. i'm not tryinna get you to forgive me, i just want you to know. i'm not just apologising cause i know i have to. i really do wanna be there for you. i don't ever wanna be missed out in your life. truthfully, at times, i myself never felt like you treated me as a best friend too. i guess we're both cowards cause we're confessing on a blog. hah. i'm just gonna say it ALL out here. i want us to be best friends again. if i've lost your trust, i don't mind trying to get it back. if there's anything you need me to change about myself, i will. i'm not emotionless anymore right? i changed! it's all my bloody fault for being so cowardly and stupid. i'm really really sorry. i don't blame you if you never wanna talk to me again, but even if there's the teeniest little chance that you do, i want it to be how it was before. to be frank, i've always wondered why I'm your best friend. i wondered what was so great about me that made you like me.i don't want anyone else to get in the way. it can't be that we aren't meant to be best friends right? you might think i'm making a big deal about this but i think what i did IS a big deal. i'd be freaking pissed if you did that to me. i'm really sorry, cause i was the last one, and i don't wanna let you down like the other did. really, honestly.

Labels: give me something to believe in.

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

HEYLOW. today i saw a man in jurong east whose tee said "milk makes you slim, heehe" HAHAHA i think the heehe part is damn funny, but apparently only chan and me think so.yeah so today after school we had the..what ah? oh the STEP interview and i am so freaking pissed at mr yee cause he gave the sec 2s priority instead of us so im not gonna talk about it. %$&^%**&#$ then i went to mac with jeslin and joanne then dinah siv and shukyee came and sat with us. and we prank called shawn so when he called my phone we acted as guys then shawn asked "where did you get this phone? it's my senior's one!" then joanne was like "i see on the table then i take lor" HAHAHAHHA so funny then he believed everything and he thought someone stole my phone LOL! then we prank called adib and i think adib was like so confused. haha. then i went to the libby to meet chan and we spent so long waiting for customer service that we had only one hour left to study. and we didnt. we sat and talked and read and crapped then we ate at kfc then went home. yeah thats all MUST STUDY SOCIAL BYE.

Labels: i'm here without you baby.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

hello! today i went to shakti's house. we ate self-made macaroni for lunch and shakti was entertaining herself with her stupid jokes. she made us banana split for dessert! yum.hahaha but they were quite funny luh(: then we played some harry potter game at her house then we studied cause we are good hardworking people. then i got hungry so we went to make macaroni again! then we ate and i killed her voodoo doll keychain. HAHAHAH i was like twisting its head and suddenly the thread all came out HAHAHAH! oh i got picture.it's up there.
LOL then we held a funeral for the voodoo doll and shakti's snake ate it and hahaha. yeah nvm.

Labels: nothing in this world can turn out the light.