Saturday, December 16, 2006
can it be?
hi. i know i'm gonna sound like i'm insane in this post, but who cares.
ystd night i couldn't sleep at all. i went to bed at 11?
yeah..and then i was thinking about damn band and school and everything, and i really dunno why, i started crying, and i couldn't stop.
and i just lay there crying, till it was 1230. then i couldn't take it anymore, i had to hug mummy.
i went to her room and lay beside her. i think i made so much noise she woke up.
heh. i told her i couldn't sleep, didn't say anything abt the crying.
and even lying there, i still cried. god, i thought i was going insane.
seriously. i thought i finally cracked.
then aft abt 15 min my mum asked me to go drink water n close my eyes n count to hundred. i did that, and must have drifted off eventually.
what e freaky night.
i really hope i NEVER have to experience that again.
yesterday went to orchard with mummy. bought slippers and all the other stuff.
tmr got school, then meeting dad to buy books, then got dance. man, i'm so cinfused.
i really dunno what i'm supposed to do to quit band!
i sent an sms to shieboon, but he didn't reply. i so dunno what to do!!
i think that's part of the reason i cried last night. should i talk to miss chong?
should i ask mitchell?? what the bloody hell am i supposed to do?????
maaan..should i ask my mum?
but i dun wanna bring up the topic. i know i'll start crying if i talk about it.
i dunno why. do i really hate band so much?
sigh. i dun wanna talk about it.
i need to keep some distance. hopefully they'll sack me. yay!!
ARGH. stop talking about it!!!!!!!!!!!
argh. i gtg now.
ciao.
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